To each his own. To me my own.

If you really knew me…

Even recently, I’ve seen a few posts of this kind. I find them intriguing, and thought I’d take a stab at it myself. I’ll be the first to admit it really worked the ole’ brain a bit. If nothing else, it forced me to take a step back and take a good look at myself – which isn’t a bad idea to do from time to time…

If you really knew me, you would know: That every day I make a valiant effort to laugh heartily at least once. Laughing is my favorite thing in the world to do, and nothing else has ever matched the euphoric feeling it brings me.

And over here, in the darker corner… we have the times that I laugh in order to keep from crying.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I despise a blatant liar. Unless I believe the truth will really hurt your feelings, I’ll be completely honest with you. I know there are exceptions that run the gamut on this… with that said, I simply cannot justify not getting that same truth in return.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I’m really somewhat of a loner. I hate crowds and even large groups of people. I would be perfectly content to come home from work on a Friday afternoon and not leave my condo again until Monday morning.

If you really knew me, you would know: That as cliche as it may sound, all I’ve really ever wanted in life is to be loved. Totally, completely, wholly and without reserve. I believe this particular type of love to be easily recognizable by it’s recipient.

If you really knew me, you would know: That my tolerance for small children is marginal at best. Not just any small children… but the small children of today’s world. The children who are bribed, petted and spoiled by today’s parents in order to semi-behave.

If you really knew me, you would know: I love the ocean and it’s inhabitants so much so, that I can get really emotional just talking about it if I allow myself.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I abhor drama – in any way, shape or form. If you bring drama close to me and I see it for what it is, I will most certainly turn my back on you and walk away. Because I can.

If you really knew me, you would know: That the ability to write means everything to me. It doesn’t matter to me that I don’t write professionally. If I go one single day without writing something, anything – I feel like a huge part of me is missing.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I’m very opinionated on two subjects: politics and religion. It really doesn’t pay for me to argue the subject of either one, because I’ll stop at nothing to prove my point. By then, my blood pressure has usually skyrocketed past the safe zone.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I’m one of those dreaded perfectionists. I struggle daily with this debilitating trait that so often makes my life more difficult than it should be.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I strongly uphold marriage vows, and I believe that there are ZERO excuses for infidelity within a marriage. The pain that results from this type of cowardly betrayal may lessen with time, but the scars will remain forever.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I feel just as strongly about domestic violence. In fact, maybe even more so. I’ll have to get back with you on that one.

If you really knew me, you would know: That I worry way too much of what others think of me. I do know I’ve literally spent a lifetime trying to reroute this warped way of thinking. At this point, any improvement in this area is looking kinda shady.

And over here, in the lighter corner… I’ve come to realize that shade trees sometimes provide an incandescent lift


7 responses

  1. Love your stance on drama. I’m working on that myself!

    August 13, 2010 at 9:29 am

    • Bonnie

      Thanks, Em. It took me 20+ years to learn that enough was enough… and I don’t plan on returning anytime soon. 🙂

      August 13, 2010 at 9:52 am

      • Bonnie

        hahahaha, just read your number 7 on ‘How to talk to Peeved”. Sorry, that’s a fault of mine… for some reason I shorten two-syllable names and lengthen one-syllabler’s. (ie, Kim becomes Kimmie, etc.) It’s a sickness. 😉

        August 13, 2010 at 11:04 am

  2. We really know you now if we didn’t before. I think your writing reveals the very nice person that you are. Thank you for sharing with us the essence of Bonnie.

    August 14, 2010 at 6:41 am

    • Bonnie

      There’s a compliment that I sure plan on carrying around with me for the rest of the weekend, Carol Ann – thank you so much.

      August 14, 2010 at 8:35 am

  3. This is the type of content that makes me want to hug the writer and sigh in relief that I’m not the only one who thinks like this. (I’m a bit of a hug monster :P)

    August 15, 2010 at 6:31 am

    • Bonnie

      Awww ((big hugs)) back to you!! And so nice to know there are others like me who walk amongst us. 😉

      August 15, 2010 at 3:29 pm

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