To each his own. To me my own.

Neither here nor there

It took me a month to pack and less than a week to unpack. For some reason, I’ve always struggled with packing. Not just with moving, but with packing for a trip or vacation as well. It’s always easy for me to unpack and stick the stuff back in it’s respectful places – but gathering items and organizing them in boxes is hard for me. I think it’s largely due to my ocd about categorizing things. I also tend to want to clean out when I’m packing… I’ll abandon a box and go in search of other ‘like’ items to combine with it. Before I know it, an hour has passed and I’m still on the same box.

This got me thinking about life in general. I don’t necessarily have issues with making a change – I am a Pisces, after all. If a Pisces isn’t comfortable with the direction their life is headed, it’s a well-known fact that they will simply disappear or swim away in the other direction. That’s not to say that finding the courage to actually make that change is easy. Once the change is made however, my organizational skills are unmatched. If I can say one positive thing about myself, it’s my ability to organize – once the deed is done, so to speak.

It’s slowly beginning to dawn on me how much of myself I put into a relationship. It would also seem that I’m easily replaceable. Over the past several years I’ve lost a huge chunk of me that I’m now struggling to find again, and it’s frustrating. I must give myself time and patience in this endeavor, in as much as time passed through which I allowed that loss.

But guess what? I’ve already started.


10 responses

  1. ~Mom

    It sounds like you’re on your way to moving on. There will be bumps in the road, but hopefully, you won’t get stuck there. I think you will find a strength you never knew you had, like before. Great blog this morning!

    February 16, 2013 at 10:29 am

    • Thanks, Mom. Most of all, thanks for your being there for me.

      February 16, 2013 at 10:31 am

  2. A girlfriend gave me a scripture card a while back that I still have on my fridge …. “Strength for the journey”. It’s a reminder not to worry that we’re not strong enough before we begin, because it’s in the journey that God makes us strong. In faith. One day, one step at a time.

    Isaiah 58:11

    Love, hugs and prayers my friend.

    February 16, 2013 at 11:09 am

  3. Thanks, dear Elena. I needed to hear that this morning. Love and hugs to you, my sweet friend. xo

    February 16, 2013 at 11:39 am

  4. Best of luck, making a new start takes courage.

    February 16, 2013 at 4:05 pm

    • Thanks, GB. I bought myself a bead-bracelet titled ‘Courage’ back during the start of the New Year. I like to think it helped me. 🙂

      February 16, 2013 at 7:41 pm

  5. I pack the same way: very organized. It makes unpacking easier!

    February 17, 2013 at 6:16 pm

    • That’s so true, Thoughtsy!!

      February 18, 2013 at 7:35 am

  6. Helen Reynolds

    Love you Bon! 🙂

    February 26, 2013 at 1:32 pm

    • Love you too, Helen. 🙂

      March 1, 2013 at 12:13 pm

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