I’ve wanted to write something for a few weeks now but every time I start, I back up and delete it. Perhaps it’s because I’m so unsure of myself at the moment – or that yet another dismal post will disappoint my gentle readers. This post will likely be all over the place, for that I apologize. I must get past whatever it is I’m feeling and just write though… because I need to.
January was a topsy-turvy month to say the least, but the busy details of my move kept my otherwise scattered brain very occupied. The US Post Office took it upon their selves to forward my mail a month early, even though the forwarding order had a start date of February 8th. Three weeks worth of mail is now who knows where, and believe me I’ve called everywhere about it. I also had to find a living room suit, as I had ditched mine previously.
I guess I’m still in shock. There’s a bit of anger deep down in there too, but right now just mostly shock. This not being my first time, I understand the many levels of emotions you go through when it comes to breakups – at least that should make things easier. This morning in the grocery store checkout, the cashier asks me “So who are you pulling for in the Superbowl today?” For whatever reason I had to fight a flood of tears back. I paused for what seemed like a minute, and stumbled to him, “I’m neutral on this one, to me it doesn’t really matter.” And it doesn’t. But what an inopportune moment for tears.
It’s gonna be okay. I just need to type that, to read it, to believe it, because it will be. Five days from now, I’ll stand… once again.
What is with the Post Office? They’re only forwarding about half of my mail. Grrrr….
February 4, 2013 at 9:49 am
I don’t know what’s happened, but I’m hearing more and more of this. 😦
February 4, 2013 at 3:35 pm
What the Hell has happened??? I take it You and Keith broke up and I’m so very sorry. I thought things were fine between you two. It’s a shock to me and if I can help in any way just let me know. You can bend my ear or vent if you want to. # 8035472876. I here to help anyway I can. Love you!!
February 5, 2013 at 11:23 pm
Thanks so much, dear Helen. It just didn’t work out, nothing else I can really say. I appreciate your being there. Love you!
February 6, 2013 at 9:30 am
I meant what I said. If I can help in any way please let me know! I’ve been down that road many times and my heart breaks for you. Let me know where you’re living so I can mail that Christmas card I never mailed. 🙂 I love ya and I’M HERE!!
February 10, 2013 at 7:27 am
Thanks a million, Helen. I’ll give you a shout soon with my new address. Yep, it’s hard – right now my furbabies have my mind occupied with getting them adjusted. Big adjustment, especially for a border collie in an apartment. So many people have assured me that it can be done. xo
February 11, 2013 at 7:46 am