Shaken, not stirred

I woke up this morning to news of a 4.3 earthquake to the immediate west of our own very own city of  Chicago, IL. Wow, that really hits home. Pardon the pun.

There’s not much being said about it on the news, which surprises me. It scares the crap out of me after what just happened in Haiti. The reports indicate it was ‘widely felt’ even though it happened in the middle of the night. From where the quake was positioned it was reportedly felt across three states: Illinois, Indiana and Wisconsin. Wow.

I don’t know why but this starts me thinking about patterns. Kind of like earthquakes seem to follow a pattern, so do the lives of certain people follow a pattern. More often than not, these are patterns that need to be broken. Be that as it may, if you find yourself repeating the same patterns, like finding yourself in the same situations time and time again – it’s definitely time to take another look at yourself.

From personal experience, I usually won’t even recognize the pattern until I see myself making excuses for it. I’m not proud of the patterns I’ve followed in the past, but there’s this one I seem to fall into over and over again. Even recently, when I’m asked by close friends or family about this particular pattern, I end up trying to cover it up or sugarcoat it. I try to explain my way out of the pattern. I do my best to disguise the fact that there’s no attempt being made by the other person to help their self. I’ve even lied to people about it, I admit it. These lies are easier for me to tell rather than face the truth. But remember, I’ve done it all before – that’s what makes it a pattern. I should be a real Pro at it by now.

Why is this, and where is the logic? When I know, deep down inside I know, that it is what it is….

Which is another pattern that I’ve fallen into.