If I Could Go Back 10 years…

During the drive home yesterday I felt my mind aimlessly wonder into door number 678 of deep-thinking. I’ll admit I don’t go there often – when I do, it almost comes about subliminally, like when you’re about to drift off to sleep. Sometimes it ends in a rough-and-tumble with my alter ego. Many of my own deep thought activities involve scenarios, alternate endings, and options. For the record, I like options.

If you could go back 10 years or so… what is the single thing you would change? In this instance, the final answer would consist of a lone instance. Just one single thing to change if you could travel back ten years.

Here it is. I would retract at least 80% of the trust and vulnerability I’ve given out so freely, without having been earned.

Hey, wait – no, that’s two things!

No. See, when you give up too much trust, you become vulnerable. And when you become vulnerable, you become the submissive. I could carry this down a few levels further, you know.

Doesn’t that make 3 things now?! You’re not on the right track here, Bon.

Although it probably sounds like I’m at a spot where I’m regressing instead of progressing, let me assure you this isn’t the case. So why would I choose this subject? It’s simple. Because it’s having an effect on my current life.