To each his own. To me my own.

Surreal

I’m looking so forward to my move, I really am. The emotions that come with this move are high, though – higher than those who would be making that ‘generic’ move from one place to another. To me, the home I currently reside in represents the beginning of a brand new life following a failed marriage of 21 years. This home I’m in – it’s a staple in my life. It might seem weird to most of you, but I actually knew shortly after I moved here that if and when the time came to ever leave, it would be more than emotionally challenging. Of course back then, I couldn’t even imagine there would come a time when I would leave.

But the time is coming. It’s all so surreal. Slowly but surely, I’m gathering everything together.

I ran out of paper towels last night, so I went to fetch an extra roll. I realized it would probably be the last roll of paper towels that I would ever replenish here. The forest beyond me has morphed into my very favorite look… it’s like an artist has taken their tiny brush and dab dab dabbed little hints of green on the ends of all the branches.

All of the forest is flourishing. Each new spring, this continues to represent promise and hope to me. It’s so very beautiful. The deer will make their nightly trek through the woods, on time nearly every night. Soon I’ll hear the nightly hum of boats cruising the lake again, for a short while…

I have to accept the fact these are the last times that I’ll be gazing at this beautiful forest I’ve called my own for 3 years. Honestly, just opening an empty cupboard in the kitchen can make my eyes well up.

It’s surreal. In fact to me, this is the epitome of surreal.

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4 responses

  1. The wooded scenery is beautiful. The view from your window and the sentiment you feel in your heart for your new-beginning home sounds like it was truly a gift from God to comfort you. May God lead you every step of your journey, Bonnie. You are a special person, beloved of the Lord. Blessings to you as you find your way…

    March 28, 2011 at 8:42 am

    • Bonnie

      From the very beginning, I’ve felt as though God lead me here. It’s been quiet, safe – tranquil even. Thank you for those ever-comforting words, dear Carol Ann. Blessings to you…

      March 28, 2011 at 12:54 pm

  2. Ah the view is lovely and I’m sure lots of memories there but this is a new chapter and you’ll love your new home I’m sure. Can’t wait to see some photos!

    March 28, 2011 at 9:47 am

    • Bonnie

      Thanks, dear Vixter! Yes, that song ‘Closing Time’ has been on my mind for quite some time now. I am reminded of the last episode of Friends, where they all got emotional as they were leaving their keys on the counter. Once they all left, the cameras spanned the now-empty apartment in 360º fashion… brings me to tears every time I watch it.

      March 28, 2011 at 1:04 pm

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