To each his own. To me my own.

As Time Goes By

I have no idea where time is going. It’s flying by so quickly and I feel I’m getting nothing done – not the things that are really tops on my to-do list, anyway.

I want to get started on some brochure work I promised a friend for her side business. I miss writing!! I want to spend more time with my family. I want to catch up on the few blogs I follow. I seriously need to get a grip on my time management skills. And I need to start packing to move. Hey Bon… would you like some cheese with that whine?

I haven’t mushed and gushed about romance for awhile and boy do I feel the need… so if this topic isn’t for you then this is quite possibly your stopping point. When exactly did I start believing that my Prince actually did exist? I can’t say exactly. All I can say now is that he does. In him, I have found everything and more that I thought never existed in a soulmate. I have happened upon a treasure – one that I want to expose to the entire world. Sometimes I find myself feeling paranoid that something is going to ruin what could only be described as my fairy tale love affair. I worry about car accidents, deadly diseases and crime. I know I shouldn’t, the Lord takes care of everything in His way – but I worry just the same. I mentioned this to my daughter, and you know what her response was? ‘Mom, that’s an actual condition associated with an anxiety disorder. It’s not that uncommon and if it’s really bothering you, there’s help for it‘.

That’s my little psychology major.

So, play it once, Sam, for old times sake…


4 responses

  1. Helen

    Bon, I’m soooooo happy that you have found your prince charming. I wish everyone could be so lucky! I too, keep waiting for “the other shoe to drop.” I have good reason to fear that because it has happened so many times in my life. One day not too long ago, I told myself that I was spending too much time and energy worrying about “what MIGHT happen.” I can’t say that I have stopped worrying all together, but when those thoughts start creeping in, I tell myself that I can’t think about that and I push it away. No it doesn’t always work, but I’m not spending as much time thinking about the “what if’s”. With Destiny driving now, yes she’s old enough to drive, I find my old friend worry, trying to take control of my mind. I’m just not going to let it take me down that old path I know so well. The world is full of people who have loved and lost, but most of them will tell you, that they would have rather had that love for a time, than to not have had it at all. All the worry in the world is NOT going to change life’s path that God has chosen for us. With all that said…I still have an anxiety disorder and I will have it for the rest of my life, but at this age {52} I choose NOT to let it get the better of me again. BTW…good luck with that “to do” list! Love you! 🙂

    February 26, 2011 at 11:27 am

    • Bonnie

      Thanks so much, dear Helen. And that’s very true, that loved and lost saying… You know, I try and avert the thoughts whenever they start to take that dark route. Contrary to what my daughter told me, I believe it’s in our own human nature to worry about losing something we love so very dearly. I’m so glad to hear you’ve got a handle on what can be crippling to many – there’s so many branches of anxiety that it would be impossible to list them all here. Here’s to life, laughter and much love for us!! Love you!!

      February 27, 2011 at 8:01 pm

  2. I believe I saw that movie, Casa Blanca, years ago, and I don’t remember exactly what it was about, but I remember that it was sad, and that all the way through the movie, you knew the end would be sad.

    May your life be just the opposite. May you thrive and accept every new challenge knowing that God loves you and will always draw you into a closer walk with Him. Blessings to you, Bonnie…

    February 26, 2011 at 1:28 pm

    • Bonnie

      You’re exactly right, Carol Ann – it was on the sad side. I love the characters and well, the entire setting in those days – when times were so much simpler. Back then, the actors/actresses just seemed to radiate love on-screen… they didn’t even need words to express their emotions.

      Thank you so much for your gracious and kind heartfelt wishes. You truly are one of a kind, and I’m proud to call you friend. Know that I wish the same for you, dear Carol Ann. Blessings to you…

      February 27, 2011 at 8:08 pm

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